juz...leave me alone..

May 14, 2010

assalamualaikum...
yeah...title post yg sgt xmmberangsangkan...
ahha...wut is wrong wif me? mrh2 xtntu psl...n i start 2 being pesimis to myself..
wut is wrong??? ak rse ak terlalu byk wat keje smpai stress...
n when people ask to me to do dat..to do diz,i feel like...i noe la...
plz dun remind me..i noe wut im gonna to do...

ouhh...plz jila..they need u more than u think..
ok..mari sy explain ap yg sy rse skang ni...ctenye bgini...
saat2 sukar yg ak rse ak xmmpu ak lalui,ak da tempuh..byk dugaan ak tmpuh..
n ak rse,ni baru skit..sbg sorg plaja....klu bru skit ni pon ak xdpt nk handle,cmne bile yg besa mndatang nnt???ok..mybe ak xmatang lg...xdpt pk how to solve diz...
sem 4...btol2 mncabar kewibawaan ak sbg plaja...
dlm ati trase nk quit...but,..da sem 4..ko gilee???????????????? ko nk jd org yg xbrgune ke??
xgune...nnt org pndg ko seblah mate je kot..

stress..stress..n stress... test...dekat2...sume subjek..bace2..
otak rse...mcm nk pecah...tgk mmbe2...bgn pg stdy..pas mkn stdy...mlm stdy smpai lewat mlm...
ak dpsiko...ouhh..tidak....damn! ak mule stress....tgk dorg cpt sgt afal bnde2 tu..
dlm pkran..cptla abes sume ni...ak nk blk umah..rehatkan pkran..
fuhh..abes jugak...then..final pon dtg..
omg! ak xpnah rse setakot ni kt final..y??
sumenye slh ak..xstdy btol2..bangan byk...
ap nk jd kt ko ni jila...ak mule sdar..n mse final ak stdy btol2...
tp..mse mengeja..ad je yg trtggl ntok dbace...now serve ur rite kan jila...

final..cptla abes...+ muet...ak rse sgt tension..but...
dpn kwn2,ak tnjuk yg ak ni cool..spaye,dorg pon ble jd cool n xtension sgt..
ak ckp kt mira.. "mira..rehatla..jgn struggle sgt cmni..jgn stress"..
tp ak?pas stdy..mlm2 tido..tutp mke ngn bntal,mleleh airmate...
pk..ble ke ak wat ngn bek final ni..im so tired..dgn politik lecturer...
dgn environment.. jln penyelesaiannye,ikot jela ap nk jd,jd laa....
rse cm xde pegangan idup...biarlah..mrkh test dpt 65 je...
biarlah..carrymark 27-28-29 je..i've try my best...
but..im still crying...even i said,wut is gonna b happen,let it b...

last paper sgt menyesakkan dade...
gosh..everything is wrong! try to not think bout it..
smile infront of my frenz..say congrate coz they can perform well in the last paper..
smile..smile..smile..im ok..huhu...tgk 1 litre of tears...ouhh..cte tu sgt sedey..
ak nanges smpai bgkak2 mate..cte tu mmg sdey...tp ak nanges sbb ak da punahkan sume final ak..ak lepaskan mse ak tgk cte tu..nnt org tnye..ble la ak ckp ak nanges sbb cte tu..hehehe..
well..ak xnk jd sorg yg lemah..ak xnk org pning psl ak..
ak xnk org simpati kt ak...ak xnk org ckp kesian kt ak...

ari yg dtggu2 da tibe..last war..muet speaking..yeah..
ak harungi dgn tenang..bcoz,ati mlonjak nk blk umah...
da smpai umah...xsmpai 24jam ak jejak kaki kat umah....
"dik..nnt ko tlg cat grill tu..." "dik..nnt ko kms bla3.."
"dik..nnt ko susun bla3..." "ko ni xreti nk berkms ke?"
"ko ni...ddk je tau..tau x kami lg pnt bla3"
*adik2 gado..mihun sup pon tmpah*
klu kesabaran ak xde,ilang pale adik2 ak ni...ok..ak kms...

argghhh!!!! im so tired.. T.T
sy nk rehat ntok 3-4 ari ble x???ble x sume??
sy pnt..sy nk rehatkan otak...sy nk rehatkan emosi sy...
sy nk rehatkan urat2 dlm bdn sy..
sy nk rehatkan ati sy...
tp..no one can understand... "ko ingt ko sorg je pnt...ni lg ha nk kne kms nk kne tu..nk kne ni..."
i noe....bg ak mse...ak taula nk wat cmne....

btol ckp nougat..ak xpndai handle stress.. yep..ak xpndai..
ak sgt xpndai...jgn pk mslh yg kecik2...
klu bg nasihat mmg sng..xpe...ak ikut nasihat...
ok..now...juz...leave me alone... coz...ak xnk..trmrh org yg xspttnye..
ak xnk...care ak layan wat org rse ak ni ptt dilempang je..
ahha...

ok..skian...im ok...
:-) assalamualaikum....

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